I Am The Luna by Moonlight Muse Chapter 36
A Past Forgotten
“Thank you, Alpha Hugh, for allowing Valerie to be placed here and for the warm welcome,” Jai says as he shakes Dad’s hand. “And for allowing me to stay at your pack, it is a great honour.”
Dad nods curtly.
“Don’t take it for kindness, I only agreed
because you have been a carer for Valerie. You will be allotted an apartment and you may visit Zaía’s place, but be aware, due to you still being a part of that pack, a guard will accompany you at all times. Do I make myself clear?” Dad’s voice is crisp and curt as he looks Jai dead in the eye.
“Yes, of course, Alpha,” Jai says with a firm
“After dark, you are not to venture out around the pack, save going to and from
It had been a great surprise when Dad had asked if any family would be staying with Valerie and if so, then he needs to know so he can have security enforced.
It was only jai who would be staying with her, something that Sebastian and Jai both thought was ideal, having Jai closer to me, too. Although I made it clear, I am perfectly fine without them!
“Well then, have a good evening,” Dad says to the both of us before he glances at the house for a second before he takes his leave.
“Come on in,” I say.
Valerie’s room was already arranged in the conservatory, and I had everything in place for my hope in this ritual of healing.
I know the omegas who helped set the place up and Dad thought I was crazy, but they entertained me anyway. I didn’t even care when I received side-eye looks when they brought in the supplies I asked for.
I didn’t mind what they thought of us, as long as she got better by it.
I’m willing to try anything for her.
I need my girl back.
“So… can I meet them?” Jai asks me. He
looks a bit nervous as he tries to hide his
I nod, smiling slightly.
“Of course,” I say, leading the way inside. “I told you to have dinner with us.
He nods, “You were saying, I hope you cooked because I miss your food and I’m
excited to meet those little mini versions of
Or one mini version of Bastien.
Sebastian and I had arranged a time for a call tonight, and I won’t deny that I’m a little nervous… It’s the one time we have
arranged a timing, so there is a chance it won’t just be a quick thing…
I have a feeling he’ll ask me why I left like that… and with me asking Atticus, which I did tell them, I’m sure he might want details.
I lead the way into the lounge, pushing away those thoughts and smile, watching the twins who are playing with building blocks.
“Holy…” Jai mutters.
I look at him and back at the kids, realising they are building quite an impressive
“No Sia, like this see?” Zion says gently, showing his sister where to put the little piece she’s holding.
“Smart little buggers huh…” Jai whistles as the twins are so deeply immersed with what they are doing they don’t realise we’ve
“Children, come on over here, this is… Uncle Jai, a friend of mine.” I say, drawing their
They both look up and Zion is the first to
spring up and hurry over, with Sia a few steps behind.
“Hello,” Zion says, holding his hand out to
Jai crouches down and I can see the
emotions in his eyes.
“Hey, Zion.” He says softly, taking his small hand and giving it a shake. “Love your hair.”
He ruffles his hair before I see him touch his chest and lower his head ever so slightly.
He’s acknowledging him as his future Alpha
He glances up at me and for once there’s no smile as he tries to contain his emotions, looking at Zion once again.
The look in his eyes is of someone given hope
A pack that is still without an heir…
Am I selfish in keeping them here?
I want to protect them.
I remain emotionless as Sia clings to my leg shyly, peeping out at Jai.
“Hello, princess,” Jai says gently, holding
his hand out to her.
“Hello.” She says, still holding onto me.
“It’s a pleasure to meet you. They are mini versions of you…” He says looking up at me as he tugs her cheek gently.
He means both of us.
“But I don’t look like a girl,” Zion says, pointing up at me and pulling a face.
Jai smiles and shakes his head. “No kiddo, it’s true you don’t look like your Mommy.”
Zion looks relieved at that.
“Alright, dinner is ready! Jai, how are you?” Mom’s voice breaks the emotional
atmosphere, and I couldn’t be more relieved.
“Melanie! Oh wow! It’s been three years, but you still look as beautiful as I remember, if not younger and even more ravishing.” Jai flirts as he stands up and hugs Mom.
I can’t help but smile, reminiscing on the
“Want to elope?” Jai teases Mom, earning himself a frown despite the smile on her lips. 2
“No. Now go find someone your own age!”
“Ouch, you look beautiful, though. How do you expect me to stay away?”/
Sebastian’s deep chuckle from behind
makes my heart skip a beat before his strong arms lock around me from behind. “Want to escape for a bit?” He whispers, his lips
meeting my neck, sending a jolt of pleasure through me.
My breath hitches as I look up at him. We had recently found one another and would
soon be married…
And although Mom disliked Sebastian, she
was trying to tolerate him, although she kept telling me he was a mistake.
I bite my lip, about to reply, when Mom
looks up disapprovingly and calls us over to
“Maybe later?” I whisper, leaning up and kissing his lips.
His brilliant blue eyes sparkle before he smirks. “I am going to hold you to that, My
(END OF FLASHBACK)
I take a deep breath to calm my emotions as I head to the dining table and take my seat.
The dinner with Atticus was two nights ago…
and although I told him everything will continue the way it is between us, I do feel I need to put distance between us. It’s the
only way he’ll accept it and move on to find
“Oh, you made my favourite!” Jai says as he helps himself to some pasta.
I raise an eyebrow. “Isn’t that always the case with anything I cook?”
“Well, if you cook it, I’ll eat it. And it’s an instant favourite!” Jai says with a wink at Sia. “Don’t you agree?”
She nods shyly as she leans closer to me.
I observe her. She looks better today, but she has her good days… my heart squeezes and I give her a gentle hug.
I can feel Zion watching me intently and turn my attention to him.
“Uncle Jai used to be my friend a few years. ago. We used to… work together.” I explain, not knowing how else to put it.
“Oh, ok Mommy,” Zion says, but he looks lost in thought for a moment before diving into his plate of food.
“Are you alright?” I ask Sia gently, and she
simply nods her head, giving me a beautiful
The rest of dinner passes by smoothly and
we are almost done when Mom asks Jai where he’s staying.
“It’s not too far from here. I’ll be around daily, though.” Jai grins.
“Nonsense! I told you, Zaia, to let him stay here.” Mom says, unhappily.
“Mom, Dad said for safety reasons, and I know we trust Jai, but he’s not part of this pack. We have to abide by Dad’s laws.” I say quietly.
“I’ll talk to the Alpha myself. fai, unpack your things in the room upstairs. Putting him somewhere else…. My foot.”
I stare at her in shock. She’s willing to talk to Dad? For Jai?
Well, I know she’s always been fond of Jai, but for her to actually talk to Dad…
“Please Melanie, there’s no need for that,”
Jai says, waving his hand. “I appreciate
being able to at least be around you all. It’s not too far from here, and I respect that the Alpha is prioritising Zaia and the children’s safety.”
She’s about to get up, but at his words, she sighs in frustration and slumps back in her
“That man is far too arrogant and needs to learn he can’t boss others around.” Mom
“I love Grandad,” Sia whispers to me with a
little happy smile.
Mom frowns. “There’s nothing to love!”
“He’s nice to me,” Sia says.
“And that’s all that matters,” I say warmly, giving Mom a gentle poke of my eyes as a
If Dad was good to them, then why shouldn’t they have a relationship?
I look between Sia and Mom and realise that
I should ask myself that question.
Why isn’t Sebastian a part of their lives?
My heart squeezes as I fall silent as we continue to eat our dinner. 1
“Do you think that’ll work?” Jai asks as he stares through the open roof of the
conservatory, which was now set up as a bedroom for Valerie. The moon shone
directly down upon her.
It’s a while later and the kids are getting ready for bed and Jai is about to leave.
I nod. “I have high hopes. This method surely worked, or we wouldn’t have such books in our possession.”
“This is magic, or abilities long forgotten over time, Zaia. We have now become more man than wolf.” Jai says, staring at the
I look down at the books that were treasures of this pack. Old books that Dad gave to me
without even a care. Another sign he has no interest in preserving the past.
“And I think it is there that we failed as the
creation of the goddess,” I say softly as I look at the glowing orb in the sky.
It always relaxes me…
When he doesn’t reply, I glance at him to
feel him watching me.
Raising an eyebrow, I cross my arms, “You think I’m crazy too?”
He shakes his head. “I could never think you’re crazy, I just… what you said kinda hit. It’s true, as werewolves we don’t really
honour our roots. You know when I was a kid, I remember granddad telling me of their full moon runs, everyone would shift, and they would run together as a pack under the full moon.”
His words make my insides fill with the warmth of a memory of a time long passed.
“There was something called The Full Moon
Hunt. They’d hunt and kill something
together and then feast upon it. There used
to be an award for the one who brings the biggest offering back. He said he never got to be part of one as it was abolished before he even got his wolf, but as a child, he loved to see the youth go on these runs.” Jai continues, sighing. “It’s crazy. I feel a sense of nostalgia, but I’ve never experienced that time, but the stories.”
“No, but I understand, as a child, hearing those stories meant something. If I was an Alpha, I’d want to bring that back to my pack. I would want us to train our young, to make sure their bodies are strong enough to
shift. It’s disappointing that as the years
pass, the number of those able to shift becomes less and fewer, although our packs
“Yeah… wow, I never thought of it like that. When you put it like that… we’ll probably die out someday and forget our gifts.”
“It looks to be so.” I say, picking up the two books I had brought down to show Jai, ”
Well, I’ll show you out. There’s six of our most trusted guards stationed right around the conservatory and one of our trusted maids will stay with her.” I reassure him.
“Thanks. It’s kinda weird to be away from her.” He says, rubbing the back of his head
as he walks over and kisses Valerie’s
forehead gently. She’s all hooked up to the machine, looking at peace under the glowing
Please let this work, oh goddess
“I’ll talk to Father tomorrow. Maybe you can
move here, especially since I’ll be on a business trip next week.”
He nods. “Thanks, but don’t argue on my
behalf. Like I said, I’m grateful he even allowed me entry.”
I bid Jai goodbye before I head upstairs.
After tucking the kids into bed, I go to my
own bedroom. Placing the books down on the bed, I lock the door and decide to go have a shower. There are still twenty minutes. before our planned call…
I’m out pretty fast and after a long day, I’m ready to unwind.
Dimming the lights and shutting the
curtains, I settle onto my bed, switch the
phone on and begin drying my hair with my
The phone rings a few seconds after 22:30
shows on the screen and I cock a brow as I
pick it up and accept the call.
“Were you in such a hurry to talk to me that you didn’t waste any time, Mr. King?” I ask,
feeling nervous for no reason as I run my other hand through my hair.
“If you forget, Ms. Toussaint, I am always
the one on time. You’re the one who has a
reputation for tardiness.” His arrogant reply
Crossing my legs, I roll my eyes and flip
open one of the books distractedly.
“Oh please, we both know you were the
cause of those delays…” I trail off, my heart thudding and not because of what I had
“Guilty as charged… I can hear your
heartbeat from here…”
I stare down at the page before me. It’s towards the back of the book, a lot further, past the healing section…
“Zaia?” Sebastian’s concerned voice comes.
“Zaia, is everything ok?”
“Yes… I just…”
What is this?
“Zaia? Zaia, Babe, you’re scaring me.”
I don’t know how to reply as I stare at the
symbol that mirrors my birthmark, glaring back at me from the page…