Chapter 21
Emily Thompson
Apparently, Bryan only came to pick me up like he always does. Nothing too serious or anything. Well, he always does this most times ever since our wedding and I’m not even complaining about it because I love every bit of his sweet actions. towards me.
This is the kind of man I’ve always prayed for myself and getting all of that from Bryan makes me more happy every blessed day.
Before saying yes to his proposal, I never knew he was an angel in disguise. Bryant tried for Brandon. His company almost run down because of the debt Dad owned but all thanks to Bryan, everyone is now okay. Brandon now has his money and so does Dad too.
I can’t be happier than this. Seeing my family and loved ones this happy is something I will always be grateful for.
We arrived back home, ate our meal, and chatted for a few hours before we both decided to call it a day and went to sleep. I noticed one thing about him though ever since after er our marriage. He tends to sleep early and wake up late which is unlike him according to what I’ve heard.
Both the news and Brandon especially have confirmed to me that Bryan was a workaholic. He never sleeps and even if he does, it would only be for a few seconds. and that will be it.
I had to talk to Mom about it and she told me this always happens whenever a man feels peace with the woman he loves.
I’m glad, I am that peace he wanted.
I was wrapped in his embrace on the bed and by now, I ought to be asleep but, I just couldn’t seem to. My mind keeps wandering to my son.
I really missed Aaron so much. It’s been weeks since I last saw him and it’s also hard to go see him. If I do, Bryan will definitely know about him.
Bryan on the other hand, I wish to tell him everything. I wanted to tell him he has a son but I’m scared. Scared because I don’t know what the outcome would be. What if, he’s like this with me only because there hasn’t been a child between us? What if, he changes towards me after finding out the truth? What if, he denies Aaron not being his son and feels I wanted to use him to extort money from him?
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A lot of What if keeps wandering my mind.
I am tempted to wake him up right now and tell him everything on my mind but I don’t know how it’s going to end. Good or bad? I have no idea.
“Babe, you aren’t asleep yet?” I heard his voice ask, making me jolt in fear. I didn’t expect him to be awake by this time because it’s past midnight and he’s been asleep for a while now.
My back was facing so I slowly turned around to face him and our gaze locked with each other. “Is everything okay with you? Is anything bothering you? You look sad? You weren’t like this hours ago? Tell me, what’s going on? You know you can talk to me concerning anything, right?” He bombarded me with questions, concern laced in his voice.
“Come on, Bryan. Stop making it look like there’s something wrong with me. Of course, I’m perfectly okay. I just don’t know why I find it hard to sleep tonight but not to worry, I’ll be fine. Just go back to sleep. I don’t want to disrupt your peaceful sleep “I said, hoping he would just say okay and sleep back but who was I kidding?
He’s Bryan Samuel, after all. My husband and will never take it lightly with me.
“Are you sure you’re not hiding anything from me? Or, you just don’t wish to tell me what the problem is? Because to me right now, you don’t look like the Emily I used to know. The bright you is gone and it’s so obvious on your face. Look, babe…
He trailed off on the last part whilst he got up to sit instead. I also did the same and focused on my nails like it’s the most important thing to me right now.
For some strange reason, I suddenly can’t look him straight in his eyes. I’m scared to do that. Doing that will make me get caught and I’m scared. I’m scared of losing him. I’ve come to love him so much that if I end up losing him, I will definitely lose my mind and I don’t want that.
“I’m your husband, okay? We promised to walk through this together at the altar. We both love each other, right?” He asked and I nodded my head. “Now tell me. Talk to me. What’s bothering you in this beautiful heart of yours and I promise to do my best to make you feel better. You’ve been tossing around ever since we both lay on this bed. I thought to give you some time maybe, you’ll fall asleep eventually but it seems, whatever might be on your mind, is bothering you really much.
I’m positive it’s something serious. If it’s not, you wouldn’t have acted that way. Just talk to me please and I promise to do my best to help out” he said with so much assurance laced in his voice and on his face.
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1… I… It’s just that… I mean, it’s about you” I was finally able to make a complete
sentence.
“Okay…..?” He trailed off again as he pierced his eyes through mine. “Wait, is this about Aunt Capella?”
“What?! No, it’s far from that” I said, shaking my head.
“Then, what’s it?”
“I… I’m… I have a secret that I’ve been hiding from you. I… I have- I was beginning to let out the truth but looking into his eyes right now just made me realize that I’m going to regret it if I end up spilling everything. Then, I lied. “I’m scared you will eventually leave me for another woman”
“What?!!!!” He looks at me, shocked or disappointed? I can’t really pinpoint that.
“What are you even talking about? Leave you for another woman? How?”
*I… I heard… I mean, I overheard your conversation with your Aunt the other day. I promise, I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, it just happened. You two were talking about a particular Catherine who’s your ex. She wanted you to be with her. I was just worried. What if you decide to forgive her and get back with her? You might end up leaving me and-” I was cut off by my words as he placed his l*p on mine and k*ssed me passionately. I slowly and gently wrap my hands around his neck to pull him closer and deepen the k*ss.
A few seconds later, we both pull apart breathing heavily. I raised my head to look at him in the eyes but his eyes were already fixed on my face as we ended. up locking gaze with each other. “How come you had this much in mind for the past. few weeks yet, you never opened up to me?”
“Because I don’t know how you were going to react to it. You might get upset for eavesdropping on your conversations and I don’t want that” I answered. The funniest part of this is, that I thought I was actually lying to him but turns out it’s actually what I have been afraid of ever since the day I overheard them.
I’m not the type who’s very possessive when it comes to their partner but with Bryan, I find myself gradually becoming one.
I’m starting to become too possessive and obsessed with him.
“Babe… He trailed off holding my hands in his and caressing them gently, giving me a tingling feeling already. “I don’t know what you heard that made you this way but believe me, she means nothing to me. I intentionally didn’t say anything about
her to you because I felt it doesn’t worth it. Not because I don’t respect you enough to tell you things but because she means nothing to me anymore. You’re my wife and I love you so much. She used to be in my past and that was it! Nothing is going to change that no matter what anyone says. Not even my Aunt can change my mind.
“I stopped seeing any woman ever since the very day I realized my feelings for
you.
And it’s going to continue forever. Nothing is going to change that. So, you need to stop feeling this way. You’re precious to me. I’ve never been like this with any woman. I never let my guard down around a woman, not even her (Catherine). But with you, I can’t seem to pinpoint how I feel about you because it can’t be compared to anything. I become a simp whenever it comes to you my beautiful wife and one thing is for sure, my heart belongs to only one woman and that’s you.” He confessed and k*ssed me briefly on my l*p.
“You love me that much, huh?” It came out as a tease but I didn’t mean it that way. In fact, I was serious when I asked him that.
“Of course, beautiful. I love you so much with all my heart”
“And, you will never get mad at me no matter what happens between us in the future? Even though it might be for the sake of our relationship I did it?” I asked again and he laughed.
“What could you ever do that will make me upset? Except if you stop loving me which I doubt will ever happen. Babe, you’re perfect for me. You’ve always make me happy and it’s going to continue this way, forever” he said, stamping it with a brief k*ss again.
“I love you so much, Bryan! “I confessed as I hugged him tightly.
“And I love you too with all my heart. So, can we sleep now? I hardly sleep before I married you. Now, I’m getting all my sleepless nights back and I’m not ready to exclude today from it” He said, jokingly. We broke the hug and I k*ssed him one last time before we both lay down back on the bed to sleep.
I’m sorry Bryan for lying to you. I know that one day, I will come out plain to you but before then, we’ll have to continue this way. I can’t and won’t tell
you anything for now. Please, forgive me for hiding this biggest truth from you- I thought and then shut my eyes tightly as a tear sl*pped out of my eyes.